small groups

04.08.2013

CCY and I made to church on time for once.

I really hope to be able to drive soon though because it really would make things easier.

However, I think I’m afraid to get into car accidents.

Since the past two years, several of my friends have been getting into them.

But I will hopefully be practicing this summer so that I may at least get my drivers license.

 

I’ve been sleeping on the floor/ Chau’s bear this weekend.

They still haven’t come to fix my carpet yet…

I don’t mind too much sleeping on the floor but I miss the feeling of actually sleeping on a bed !

I left my devo book at MT’s, I think she’s been reading through it.

 

SG.

We studied Isaiah 53 for our Bible Study.

For myself, I believe this was one of the ones I prepared most for.

The intentions that I had during the preparations were strong.

After Bible Study we just ate ice cream and chilled.

Coffee ice cream is SO good.

We didn’t really do anything particularly exciting – some of the other groups went for sushi, had sushi night, steak night etc. but I thought it went well regardless.

I now place these people in your hands God, please take care of them.

 

Hockey.

Flames lost to Canucks Sat.

But this does not come as a surprise.

At least it wasn’t as bad as that Oilers game. 8-2.

It is quite sad !

I hope that we will at least be able to play well against Colorado who is currently in last place.

Flames are second last in the league right now.

 

Friends.

Struggles, frustrations.

We all have them from time to time ?

Are you a person who would lend a listening ear ?

 

Duckhood lunch.

CCY and I had lunch /w Ducky today at Cafe de Tropika.

It’s a new asian restaurant in Edmonton.

I think it’s not bad, I like the layout of the place.

Ducky is not a little boy, but rather a little girl.

Sometimes it amazes me how he could be everything all at the same time.

With the physicality of a pedophile /w his scruffy five o’clock shadow.

A wannabe hobo – I say wannabe because Ducky is actually a privileged one, although he may sleepover at many people’s homes and sleep in the lobby of a hotel, he would never actually sleep on the streets.

The endeavors of a little boy – stuck in a fantasy world (apparently he’s #1 in all the fantasy sports he’s participating in, NBA, NHL, MLB ?)

I think there was some showdown b/w Dandan and him today.

Idk how that went.

He has the demeanor of a little boy too but actually, if one gets to know him, one finds that he is actually a girl.

I think it has something to do with his personality.

He has some kind of feminine quality..

CCY and I tried to explain this to him today.

At the end, he tried to book the Ebus last minute but it was full so he had to take the greyhound.

I told him last time to book ahead, when will he learn !

 

In regards to the Duckhood,

I’m sure many people know of this and idk how people feel about the exclusiveness.

Sam le chau always says how he is envious, “how come I never get to have 10 hr talks /w Edmond ?”

This was something I thought about today.

In the formations of these kinds of groups, perhaps the intentions are to become closer with the ppl in the group, but is it at the cost of making others outside the group feel left out or hurt ?

I think this happens often.

Ppl don’t say it, but I can imagine what they may feel.

Idk if this is something that Ducky realizes.

If so, then how should it be addressed ?

 

I had Rachi and CCY edit my essay.

It is now okay to read.

The topic is interesting, it is on whether or not Twitter helps increase literacy rates.

Twitter and Technology.docx

 

Bring a friend Sunday.. who shall I bring ?

Time for sleep.

03.25.2013

Currently listening to: Imagine Dragons – Demons

This is a long post.

 

I missed church today.. oops =(

That wasn’t supposed to happen.

I woke up at around 12:30 pm today although I’d say I wasn’t really awake til 2:30 pm.

Lol but still so tired.

I guess this weekend was pretty packed.

Hockey ended late as always on Friday, there were so many people !!

People who leave earlier don’t usually get to play as much b/c there’s so many people but hopefully they still had fun.

I think the guys have started to treat me like a girl again in floor hockey.

Like they would just let me have the ball during face-offs without me having to put much effort in.

Why do they do that ? =s

Maybe it’s because there were more girls who played and Shelly wasn’t there.

Shelly is usually pretty aggressive to everyone, both guys and girls.

I think I appreciate that though because I can’t learn anything if they’re not trying at all and just letting me have the ball. >_<

Were they trying to be courteous ?

Lol it might be that the E3C guys are just nicer to girls in general too though.

It might have an effect ? I dunno.

 

I had 4 hours of sleep going into my Saturday.

My saturday this week started at 10 am when Sam le Chau came to ring our doorbell.

He took CCY and I to the bottle depot and recycling at South Gate.

We got $16 something as a return which is pretty good I guess considering we gave away 4 garbage bag full of bottles already for the bottle depot earlier this year.

The blue bins at the back of South Gate has all your recycling needs. Tins and glass jars etc.

I had brunch at James and Em’s place /w CCY, Rachel and randomly Sam le Chau b/c he was just there since he drove us right after recycling.

When you walk into their house, it’s like you’ve entered the hipster world.

Their house is very hip, very fitting for them.

They have a KitchenAid mixer and a double (flip) waffle maker !! I was a bit jealous.

Apparently once you get married people just gift you appliances ! Hahah

Ppl tried to use the dance coupon on CCY but she wouldn’t do it b/c she was too embarrassed.

Lol, poor Chau.

Afterwards, CCY, Rachi and I walked around on whyte for a bit.

The shops on whyte are actually quite interesting.

I love TinBox, Chicken Scratch especially b/c they always have really cool stuff (sometimes useless though).

The music stores are pretty cool too, I wonder if I’ll ever have the chance to learn how to play violin.

That would be kinda cool.

Then it was pretty much time to go to worship practice.

We’re leading worship for next week’s baptism (Easter service) /w choir !

That is exciting b/c it’ll be different.

I’m looking forward to the set we’re playing, the lyrics of the songs are really powerful I think.

For SG, we went out to eat for once.

I know I probably shouldn’t be spending money b/c I don’t have money that I can really afford to spend right now but our small group never goes out and it’s one of the lasts of the year so I wanted to do something different.

I participated in Earth Hour !

It was already 9:15 pm when I got home though so our SG sat in the dark /w candles for 15 minutes while we did an activity.

I actually thought it was kinda cool but apparently some people were creeped out lol.

We watched The Prestige for our movie.

I’ve heard about it from various ppl but I never got around to watching it.

I finally did on Saturday and I agree it was pretty good although the ending was kind of sad when the plot finally unfolded.

It was really nice of Mango to leave early to go walk Melissa home because she was afraid to walk home by herself.

I’m really encouraged by these little acts of kindness that I’ve been seeing lately.

It makes me happy. =)

I’ve noticed that Mabel has been taking the time to actually listen to Nigel and converse with him at church.

This is something that is hard even for me b/c I am not really comfortable sometimes with the topics of his conversations and his loudness intimidates me.

What I’ve seen of Mabs these days has been a model for me to follow.

I think God has been showing her awesome things lately b/c I’ve felt that she’s beginning to change.

 

Saturday was the longest day for me.

Sunday was pretty much a study day.

I studied for 7 hrs ish ! It’s an achievement lol.

I don’t think I’ve studied for so long in one sitting since last term.

I was kind of sore from sitting so long.

There is still so much to do for school… I have a group presentation on Weds but I’ve heard nothing from my group members..

I wonder if it’ll be alright.

I think I will send them an email tomorrow.

I applied for 3 jobs today.. sigh

I really don’t know if I’ll be able to land an interview at least.

If the Spirit is willing, then I may be able to.. we shall see.

For now, I can only do my best, pray and keep an optimistic attitude.

 

On hockey.

The Flames won their home game today against the Blues (St. Louis) ! Yayy lol !

Something about home games.

I guess it would make a difference to have fans cheering you on/ supporting you.

Gives the players energy/ motivation ?

We even had Wes cheer for our team today ! =P

Kiprusoff’s SV was 0.947, I think that’s pretty good.

He did well today.

The Blues had 38 shots against which is crazy ! Our team only had 17.

Winning goal goes to Iginla lol but of course.

I think the team did better in the first half of the match but I wouldn’t know ’til I watch the replay.

A notable player today would be Roman Cervenka who scored 2 goals of the 3 giving him a 100% shooting percentage.

Plays centre. Age 27.

Hmm, he just joined the flames this season I think.

He doesn’t seem to have a long history in the league.

Okay so after this game, the Flames are now 5th from bottom, just after the Oilers in the league.

They are second last in the Western Conference.

Will they be able to make playoffs this year ??

03.05.2013

I got too caught up in my own problems that I had almost forgot there are other people that need prayers too. Please help me pray for them. For some people, I don’t really know fully what’s going on but it appears to me that some people are getting spiritually attacked.

Please help me pray for C. Shu. To root himself fully in God’s words so that he will not be persuaded at all by any lies that the enemy may use to discourage him. The same goes for all the small group leaders. For J. Chan or J. Lam to not feel like they are ever alone when they have to lead small groups by themselves, for MT to find where she is in her walk with God right now. For Cyncyn to find where you want her to be. For Wes, please give him the energy to last this stressful week for his exam. For Mabs, protect her Lord wherever she goes. Charchar, to remind her of what is important in the busyness of her days.

For Pyro, please God remind him of your love for him, please be with him and help him discern what he should do.

For everyone, a reminder that You are bigger than all of our earthly problems.

All praise and glory to You.

11.25.2012 PM

Currently listening to: Taylor Swift – All Too Well

Back to the jail life indeed….

Anti-social to the max T__T

Well, maybe not.

Anti-social on my own terms though.

I just finished another poorly written essay that is due in 20 minutes.

I am tired of the song now.

Grace Potter & The Nocturnals – Apologies.

I think I listened to it 100 times on repeat just today.

This weekend was really busy actually.

Yet I feel like there was so much time I just spent doing nothing because I was stuck.

I really dislike writer’s block.

In those moments, you just have no idea how to convey your ideas (if you even have any at all) and you are just so lost.

It’s like where do you even begin ?

They say to  just begin anywhere but that doesn’t work out too well for me sometimes. Then, my essay would REALLY be all over the place.

I missed the 6th CHRTC class on friday.

Terrible.

I slept in again.

It hasn’t happened for awhile but it’s starting up again.

Good thing there’s only a week and a half before classes end.

I feel bad though because they did teacher evaluations that day.

I wonder if my teacher ever thinks that I skip her class on purpose.

I really don’t !

Apparently cyncyn didn’t go either though. I don’t remember if she told me why. I don’t feel fully grounded these days.

“My head is up in space.”

Then I had work.

I got to work /w Yang again. I think I kind of freaked out at work because something wasn’t done right.

These days it seems I have no patience.

I hope Yang didn’t take it personally.. because I totally did not mean to blame her for anything, I was more worried about the consequences of having not done something right and if it was fixable.

Luckily, we did manage fixing the issue so it was okay.

I think I am really tired these days because I don’t get enough sleep.

And still I stay up so late.

I don’t know why I can’t make myself go to bed.

My guess is that I am stressed.

I actually do feel stressed this week. I feel so antsy, like I need to get going now because there’s so many things to do.

But still there is a lack of motivation which is due to fear.

Fear of not doing well.

If anyone can recall, last year I hid in my room every other day because I was too afraid to go to one of my classes.

Yep, it’s that feeling.

This term it’s been a lot better because I’ve managed to control that fear but sometimes I accidentally let it slip and that it’s on the loose so I have to catch it again.

After work, I went over to Anh’s to hang out with her.

Her place is actually so nice !

Her facilities include a workout room, theatre and a swimming pool.

Our small group may possibly use that space to hang out sometime.

Anh taught me to knit again and now I can’t put it down.

I think knitting is very destressing but time consuming.

We watched Charlie St. Cloud ft. Zac Efron that night. It was okay, kind of strange because it involves being able to see ghosts.

I ended up staying over that night because we were talking for a long time and it got quite late.

I wonder if I told her a little too much about myself..

Although I did find a lot more about her as well.

She asked me many questions and I answered pretty much all of them fully.

I told her my testimony because she wasn’t there during the small group when C Shu and I shared our testimonies. It was like a 3 hr testimony.

At least it wasn’t 5 hrs…

Saturday morning I ended up talking to Anh more and didn’t end up leaving til around 2 pm.

Then I had to go home and get ready for small groups and the crafts fair.

I went to the crafts fair in St. Albert with a few ppl.

It was pretty neat that everything was DIY. The stuff they sold was a bit pricey because of that though.

I got this cool harmonica necklace that you can actually play. It’s just super difficult because it’s so tiny.

Small groups was alright, C Shu and I could have been a little more prepared but I was really happy that Anh came.

I left right after GIFT even though I wanted to hang out.

I wasn’t sure if ppl were hanging out and who was driving so I just decided that if someone could drive me home then I’d just go home.

I caught a ride /w Clara, I hadn’t seen her in awhile so I was happy I got to see her.

She’s still a bit sick so that is still something to pray for.

I have a feeling she’s not eating very healthily.. =S

Sunday morning was an ordeal.

I didn’t know I had a ride /w Mikey so I thought I was going to have to miss Margie’s baptism.

When I woke up it was already around 11 am so I was really lucky actually.

We made it in time to see her baptism. Yes, I ended up going.

It was a big celebration, unfortunately I didn’t get to meet her parents.

I really wanted to meet her mom !

I rushed home afterwards to try and work on my essay but I just couldn’t focus..

It was actually kind of frustrating.

It took the whole afternoon/night.

This week is going to be hell, oh God please be with me.

My last midterm of the semester is on Tuesday. I still have one more chapter left to read/take notes on and 4 chapter exams to do. Thursday night I have my first final.