05.02.2013

I enrolled in my classes for the fall term today.

And oh my, I can already tell you now that it is going to be a struggle.

I have classes everyday and all my days start either at 7:15 am or 8:15 am.

That means I’d have to get on a bus by 6:30 am… which means I should probably start trying to wake up at 5:30 am.

I think I’m really going to have to force myself to sleep by 10 pm everyday..

Is this really possible for me ?!

That’s pretty much the time I go to bed these days.. =(.

I’m pretty sure there is some lesson to be learned here.

If I manage to change my sleeping habits to fit that schedule..  then PTL that would be a huge accomplishment.

I guess we will see !

 

Thinking about what’s to come, it’s pretty exciting.

But at the same time, I have many fears.

It’s like starting over again.

I’m still going to school but I’m studying something totally different.

I don’t really have any friends at NAIT.

Although, this year I think God has been preparing me for this.

He’s allowed me to slowly accept being on my own/ manage my loneliness during the school year.

At the same time, he’s helped me grow more confident in the friendships that have already been established by God’s grace.

I would have to say that I’m still far more motivated to go class if I actually have a friend in my class though.

Will I be able to make new friends next year ?

Challenge accepted !!

God please give me courage to talk to new people.

I hope I don’t get intimidated by them..lol.

I have to learn to be a social butterfly like Ducky ! @@

 

I don’t know what is wrong these days, if there is anything but I feel like I am becoming more corrupted.

I am beginning to feel like I only think evil thoughts.

It is so difficult right now for me to find good in certain ppl.

It’s quite frustrating.

Haha.. I really don’t want to think these things, but they have to be proven wrong otherwise.

I know that for some, there are certain reasons why I am beginning to think that way of them which makes me annoyed and somewhat angry.

But these reasons alone cannot be sufficient.

E.g. Person A is only friends /w me because I’m friends /w the ppl Person A wants to be close /w. It is evident in the way Person A acts.

I feel like Person B reads my blog only to gain info on certain ppl. I do not like this at all nor do I appreciate the fact that I’m being used for this reason.

I have been deceived by Person C all along. I have failed to acknowledge or rather been in denial even though it is quite obvious Person C’s ulterior motives.

God, I pray that you will search me and find what it is that is making me think these horrible things.

Show me the truth and teach me the best way I can deal /w these dilemmas.

Have I brought these issues onto myself ?

Perhaps things have been leading up to this point.. sighhhhh smh.

 

Playoffs have started.

Best out of 3 rounds ?

I think I’ll cheer for the Pengs this year.

Hopefully they’ll win !

They won their first.

Maybe I should cheer for the Ducks though lol.

Sam le Chau’s Red Wings lost their first round.

I heard Leafs had a really bad game against Bruins.

Err. I understand Wes’s DP now – Canucks are against Sharks for quarterfinals.

They lost their first round too.

LA Kings lost their first !

It’s probably time to get to know players of other teams as the next lesson.. ?

Honestly though, I have no idea where I should start.

 

Pengs Roster

Sidney Crosby as Captain

– plays center

– age 25

– helped score the golden goal in 2010 Olympics

– currently +26

– round 1, first pick

 

Pascal Dupuis

– plays right

– age 34

– 1st in league for GPs

– currently +31

– helped score 2 goals in their recent win

 

Marc-Andre Fleury

– plays goaltender

– age 28

– round 1, pick 1 (2003 entry draft)

– achieved shutout of Islanders in their recent win (5-0)

– 0.916 SV% this season

 

I think I will take up the photo challenge again.

To make sure I’m making use of my time.

I need to treasure the life God has blessed me /w more.

I will try to read some books this summer.

I still have to finish Hunger Games.

It’s been a year since I started reading that book I think..

I just kind of forgot about it after I watched the movie. =(

04.23.2013

Last exam tomorrow which is..  dun dun……. another essay.

Of course.

Then FREEDOM !

At least it’s an in class one this time.

Although if I don’t do well on this one, I may actually get an F for this class.. sigh.

On the other hand, the only reason I must still be alive right now is b/c of God.

Thanks for helping me get this far !

Please lend me your strength for awhile longer..

 

On hockey.

Grats Canucks for clinched NW div.

Saw this news all over twitter lol.

Has it been a couple years now ?

Clinched conference = top for each conference ?

For West, it’s Blackhawks and East is Pengs ?

Pengs vs. Blackhawks !

Yay Flames have been doing better recently.

Thanks Joc for her prayers a couple weeks back !

Kippy may be leaving though.

Retiring ? Idk.

This was sad news to me.

Perhaps we will make it to playoffs next year ! =)

Speaking of playoffs, Oilers didn’t make it to playoffs !

What happened ? =s

They’re doing worse than the Flames now !

Lol Ducky’s went/is going to one of their last games.

Idk if he went yet.

Why does he like all the players I don’t like ? Lol.

His fav player Mike Richards is at least -6 now =p

I found out this weekend that Sam le Chau is for Detroit’s Red Wings

But they aren’t doing that well this year he said.

He was disappointed lol.

Speaking of hockey, Ducky is obsessed /w his fantasy team.

Apparently his ppl are very unlucky this week though.

Lol I heard the competition is Derrick, while Shelly vs. Geoff C.

I think he should lose b/c he’s been winning all of the fantasy games and getting too prideful lol.

What sillyness !

 

Ah. So I won’t be able to make GIFT retreat this year.

That is too bad.

I’ve only gone to one ever !

I had to trade a shift with a coworker b/c of a final so I’ll be working while ppl go to GIFT retreat.

But apparently a lot of ppl can’t make it this year.

I guess I shall go hang out with them. =)

We shall have our own retreat in Edmonton.

 

Prayers this week for Boston Marathon aftermath, what’s happened in Iraq, Texas Waco incident and China earthquakes.

What has been going on these days ? =s

04.14.2013

Currently listening to: Remioromen – Konayuki (Piano vers.)

 

I keep wondering how it is possible that it’s sunday already.

There are 3 days left til my first exam.

My first exam is a take home final, which is an essay that I will start today.

 

I spent my afternoon today with MT.

We watched 3 episodes of 1 litre of tears.

It wasn’t very productive but I think it was a good reflective exercise.

What do I mean ?

I think a lot of ppl who read my blog know by now that I think about a lot of things.

Ppl, life, friends, school, God.

It’s almost impossible for me to take things lightly – to not think about it.

Either what someone has said, done, is going to do.

Something that has happened, might happen, who knows ?

Usually it is at night when I think the most.

Perhaps this is why I can never go to sleep.

But anyways, for anyone who has seen this drama, it is quite sad.

There are only 11 episodes in total.

Usually episodes run between 16-24 episodes I think.

I remember when I had first watched this drama and the impact it had on me.

I think if I ever have a related personal experience (a significant event with great influence on myself), I will have a reason and enough motivation to become a doctor.

I don’t know if my personality would fit or God would ever want to push me towards that – I really think not (I can’t see myself as a doctor..) but it could seriously happen one day.

You really never know what God would plan for you tomorrow.

This drama changed my perspective in life.

There is just too many things that we take for granted in life.

And we don’t realize it.

For me, I always forget.

The things I do have.

Instead of looking at what you don’t have, we should always look at the things we do have.

How to bless other ppl too with what we have.

 

I feel like I am a terrible hypocrite sometimes.

I know that I don’t always own up to the things I want to do.

Or they are forgotten in time.

I’ve been listening to a song, “Your Heart” by Chris Tomlin lately.

Somehow it speaks to me.

I need constant reminders, to keep walking into the unknown, to step outside of my comfort zone.

I always need more faith, more perseverence because I always fail.

I suck at the perseverence race.

Yes, it was the title of my blog previously, and it’s still the subtitle of my blog now.

I’ve been thinking about it recently, sometime this week I want to address the topics of “suicide” and “failures”.

Whether ppl know it or not, it is something I relate to quite well actually.

 

It was a good night today.

I was really happy with the turnout.

I think I was kind of worried that ppl wouldn’t show today because somehow, there are usually less ppl when we do joint events.

Tonight was kind of the last big group event we have for GIFT though.

It was a Gyro-GIFT joint night.

I really hoped ppl would show today because it kind of shows that we actually want to get to know them.

I don’t know what the real intentions of the ppl are but somehow I think just showing up at an event does make a difference.

I can’t really explain this properly but this is what I perceived from the Career-GIFT joint night.

Anyways, I hope the Gyro kids enjoyed the night too !

 

Hockey on Friday was fun although I don’t feel like I played my best.

It’s one thing when people treat me like a girl while playing and another when I actually feel like I’m playing like a girl.

There was a good amount of ppl.

Not too many and not too little.

There were a few new ppl.

I should get over my intimidation of new ppl lol.

 

Flames won against the Oilers today ! =O

They must be happy winning after the last embarrassing game. =)

Flames won at an on road game. Surprise !

Apparently a lot of the regulars are injured so there’s a lot of youngsters.

I think the pressure has been taken off since they’re not going to be in playoffs this year so ppl just play for fun.

Sometimes ppl do better when it is just for fun ?

04.01.2013

Today I thought about how I wear my heart on my sleeve. =s

I wonder if my friends actually know how much they mean to me.

When I make a friend – I don’t just make a friend.

Therefore, I don’t believe in the saying that they just come and go.

I went back and looked at the love languages test that I took.

It’s kind of interesting because the results kind of surprised me.

I wonder if this is the way I show people my love too ?

They say it may be the opposite though.

I don’t know if that makes any sense.

Love Language Scores:
7 Words of Affirmation
10 Quality Time
3 Receiving Gifts
8 Acts of Service
2 Physical Touch

I guess it kind of helps me understand myself a bit better.

Ducky came over a bit after I came home from MS.

I learned today that Ducky and Wes are actually very similar.

Very interesting.

Ducky has yet to find out his bust option.

Lol it’s ______ or bust right ?

I worry that one of the GAN notes hurt him.

Unintentionally of course.

NHL 101 lesson.

I learned a new word today – deke.

Haha, perhaps one day I’ll be able to do that.

He’s going to be MIA again !!

But he says he’ll be back on friday for floor hockey lol.

Will I last til friday ? Idk.

Time to pass out.. so tired.

I’m about halfway done one assignment.

Tomorrow I hope to write as much of the 15 pg paper as possible and finish that qualitative assignment that’s half finished.

It’s April ! Uh ohhh

03.28.2013

I survived March 27th !

What a day it was.

Lol, who would’ve thought I’d have to deal with a flooding situation ?

I’m so grateful for the friends who’ve offered their help to Chau and I.

I thank God for these ppl who’ve made an impact in our lives and might not know it.

We’re always being taken care of.

 

On hockey.

Flames won their game against the Avalanches (Colorado) last night.

Bye bye Iggy ! He’s sent to the Penguins (Pittsburgh), in pursuit of a chance to win the cup.

Perhaps he will return to us one day.

We received player prospects Kenneth Agostino and Ben Hanowski.

Macdonald did pretty well yesterday.

Three star selections
1st:	MIKE CAMMALLERI
2nd:	BLAKE COMEAU
3rd:	RYAN O’REILLY

Cammalleri scored 2 of the 4 goals.

Flames are 6th from bottom of the league now.