10.07.2012

What a day.

I woke up at 8 and got to work on time for the work shift today ! PTL

Today was such a pretty day, how could I possibly not be happy on such a day.

Yesterday night was a bit difficult for me to fall asleep because I was thinking about a lot of things.

I got scared for a moment because I realized that I was in the house alone.

I definitely don’t like living by myself.

While it’s nice to have the place all to yourself, I prefer to know that someone else is sleeping in the same house as me.

But I thought well, at least I have domo and bunny with me.

Lol, my stuffed animals (yes I still do have stuffed animals) keep me company while Chau is away.

Sounds like #FA statement lolol. -.-

But no, in all seriousness, I am very comforted to have my stuffed animals with me. I don’t care what ppl think.

Anyways, despite having a hard time falling asleep, I felt rested when I woke up in the morning.

When I am up in the morning, after having sufficient sleep, I am in a very good mood.

I realized today that I love sunrises !! (As in when the sun has been out awhile, but it still feels like morning)

No more just viewing the sunsets.

Work was kind of a pain though for awhile, it was such a busy day considering it is the Thanksgiving weekend.

Mishy and I wondered why the customers won’t just go home already.

Lol, both of us didn’t feel like being there today.

But I kind of appreciated the time because I haven’t really gotten to talk to her in quite awhile.

I never work with her anymore since I’m always working with Rosebie. (Rosebie’s shifts starts later than Mishy’s)

I was invited to Pyro’s family dinner /w the Wongs but I chose to decline it because I am choosing to go have early dinner /w Mishy and her grandma.

I thought that was a pretty cool opportunity that came up.

I get to meet a person from my coworker’s family.

Mishy’s grandma was the one who actually raised her growing up.

We shall see how it goes tmr !! I’m going to pray before going. Hopefully I don’t say anything disrespectful.

I rushed to Safeway after work to buy ingredients to cook 3 dishes for the potluck today.

Why 3 ? Idk, I just felt like it.

I asked Chau to buy me shrimp before she went back to Calgary and she bought me the wrong kind.

This is the second time she bought me the wrong kind of shrimp.

Chau always buys me the wrong items I need rofl.

The first time she bought me cocktail shrimp, the second time she bought me cooked shrimp (deveined, peeled, /w tails attached) but what I needed both times were raw shrimp (deveined, peeled, /w tailed attached).

Well at least she’s getting closer ? Hahah

Then I cooked for quite awhile. From 3:30-6, /w breaks in between though.

I made a whole chicken, jap chae (glass noodles), and marinated stirfry shrimp.

I think the chicken turned out better this time compared to last time ! Yay for improvements.

I’m really glad everything worked out because I actually did not taste test anything when I finished making everything.

Fishy gave me something today. She gave me a Question & Answer Study Bible.

Maybe I’ll be able to do some kind of devotional plan now !

Perhaps cover to cover ? I think I need to do more research to make sure my apologetics are concise.

I burned my lap carrying the food in the car on the way to GIFT.

There are actually pink marks on my thighs. T__T

For the most part, the GIFT potluck seemed to go well.

The food was really good, I made sure that this year I didn’t go overboard and eat way too much.

I just ate til I was full. (Y)

We had an all first years worship team lead us in worship today !

Aww so proud of them. =)

I did notice that some people were talked to more than others.

I wonder what I should do in these situations. Should I bring up the concern because maybe people aren’t aware ?

I tried to meet some new ppl today.

There’s a guy named Jordan who just moved here from Vancouver.

I introduced myself to Ivy, Joanna and Connie but I didn’t really get to know them.

I talked with Yang and Amelia (Canbi’s friends from China) a little and to see how they are finding school these days.

I will remember their names for sure this time !!

Chris seems a little down, I think I’ll ask him tmr what’s up.

Something for me to think about this Thanksgiving is what it means to be thankful.

Pastor James shared at the GIFT Thanksgiving potluck today.

He shared about how he always puts the things he’s thankful in a list.

Ex. Family, friends, education, living in north america etc etc.

But he talked about how sometimes these things don’t always fulfill, satisfy him.

I think I do that too.

I always think of the things I’ve been blessed with in a list.

But something to think about is that we do not in any sense deserve the things that we receive.

We do not do God’s work so that we can say God owes us something.

Are we thankful for the things (of this world) we’ve been given or are we actually thankful of God ?

It is He who gives us these things freely in His grace and mercy.

Time to sleep. Too tired…

10.03.2012 PM

There’s always going to be ppl watching you wherever you go.

Idk, for some reason today I feel kinda depressed. Whyyy =(

Is it the weather change ? Seems like we’ll be getting snow pretty soon.

I think it’s actually been quite awhile (a week seems like a long time..) since I’ve really talked to ppl.

I see Chau pretty much everyday but we haven’t really had much of a chance to actually talk about anything deeper because she sleeps pretty early now since she has to get up early and we both just seem tired.

So yes, in a way I feel like I don’t know what’s really going on in her life atm.

Today in class, we talked about whether or not girls and boys can be best friends.

There are many mixed views on this topic.. but it really seems like you’d have to look at the context.

Technically, I have a “best friend” who is a guy.

But we don’t really talk to each other. He lives in another province for most of the year.

We barely know what’s going on in each others lives. Sometimes I’d have to resort to stalking his FB.

…..

But if I really do need to talk to someone, I could still talk to him and he would listen to me, most of the time not knowing what to say.

Or distracted. Playing LoL or something like that.

He is my “best friend” but he would not be the first person I would seek if I wanted to talk to someone about something.

We will still call each other best friends and it’s true that when we hang out it is comfortable because we don’t have to say a whole lot.

A brother-sister relationship.

It’s possible right ?

Work was busy today.

Busy, busy, busy.

I went to work earlier. I think Mishy is getting really tired of working at Page.

Sometimes I wonder if I’m being taken advantage of.

It’s not like I really mind, but I sometimes get that feeling.

I think my manager is going to hire someone new. Carmen is her name, I think Chau’s classmate.

Maybe there’s a chance now that I’ll be able to go to wintercon/ go home for the holidays !

Sometimes, I don’t talk to Chau about how I want to quit work.

I feel like God wants me to stay at Page til at least the new year.

But idk why.

I don’t talk to Chau about how I want to quit because I feel like she wants to quit more than I do.

And it’s kind of depressing talking about it.

It’s dark now when I finish work.

I think that the cold, dark nights are very lonely sometimes.

It reminds me that I’m just one person in this world. A wisp of vapor.

And just like that, gone.

A few ppl visited today.

I got to see Margie, Michael, Pyro and Fishy.

It seems like so long since I talked to Margie.

But I was encouraged today because she told me she has been praying for me.

Today I got to talk to Chris about small groups and how we should “lead” it, support ppl etc.

I think it’s pretty good, we have some icebreakers planned.

Anyways,the conversation I must have has yet to come.

But soon, very soon..

10.02.2012

What in the world is happening ??

Today I woke up at 1 pm….

meaning yes, I missed my class again !!! This is the third class I’ve skipped now. All three are from the same class, my CHRTC class.

I must’ve been super tired yesterday because I somehow turned off my alarm and went back to sleep and when I woke up it was already 1.

I brought Rosebie some congee today. I’m really glad she liked it !

She’s finally starting to get better ! PTL.

Work was so freaking busy today.

The work-in was over $3000…. it is not normal.

On avg, it’s around$1,500 and on busy days it’ll be slightly over $2000 but never over $3000 !

I did 38 invoices today…. that’s $938 of cleaning costs.

It was insane.

I can understand though, there was something peculiar about the air.

You could feel that winter is definitely coming.

Anyways, I just felt like there was something else off about today.

I think it is a time to pray. A lot of things are starting soon meaning there is going to be even more spiritual warfare than usual.

Pray, pray, pray !!!

The verses I want to focus on today is in regards to “putting on the armor of God” and standing firmly in one’s faith.

There have been many spiritual attacks lately.

Satan attacks everyone in different ways, some through dreams, some through thoughts, some through fatigue, insecurities… etc. the list goes on and on.

Ephesians 6:10-18
10 Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. 11 Put on the full armor of God, so that you can take your stand against the devil’s schemes. 12 For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. 13 Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand. 14 Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place, 15 and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. 16 In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. 17 Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God.

18 And pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests. With this in mind, be alert and always keep on praying for all the Lord’s people.

After work, I showered then went to school to study. I studied from 9-12.

This is actually not enough time.

I’m behindddd in schoool ! =(

I really need to catch up this week. I’ve finally sort of caught up in social psych.

After tmr, I’ll be behind again though.

Need to do the readings for all my other classes. There’s soo much to read gah !

I want to pray for each of my small group members today.

Committee had a meeting today and they decided all the small groups.

I am paired up /w C.K. Shu. I already had a feeling that they would put me with him so I’m not surprised !

The rest of the ppl in my group are as followed:

Jchau
Anh
Corey
Kevin Mang
Steph Chan
Helen Si
Henry Liu
Linda
Peter

I totally didn’t know that Linda and Peter would be in GIFT this year !

I think it’ll be really interesting. Yay, I’m really excited to be able to journey with these ppl and see how they will grow !

I pray that these ppl will just open their hearts up to God and be willing to journey with the group.

I pray that ppl will be willing to share their stories, struggles and weaknesses so that we may all be encouraged/ help encourage.

That ultimately, we will grow to love Christ more and more as we go through the year together.

I’m going to discuss /w Chris a bit later on in the week about how we should do small groups/ communication/ schedules/ planning and stuff.

This week we’re going to have the annual GIFT Thanksgiving dinner !! Yayy, I’m really excited to be able to cook for ppl.

My schedule will be a little tight on the weekend though because I’ll be taking a work shift for Chau on the Saturday morning.

Chau will be going back to Calgary for Thanksgiving so I have to work her shifts !

I’m still thinking about what I should share about tmr for prayer meeting.

If you guys can help me pray about what God wants me to share with ppl that would be awesome !

And the last thing I want to say is that God has been calling me to go and talk to a person about something, I’m really afraid because I think it could potentially damage our friendship but I think God is telling me to take a leap of faith so I’m just going to have to do it.

I’m slowly learning what it means to let go of all fears.

This will be another.

Fasting Day 3: 09.23.2012

I really enjoyed today.

I’m quite tired so I’m just going to summarize..

I woke up late because I slept so late yesterday, I think around 1:30 pm.

I don’t think I did too much, lounged a bit and drank gatorade.

I went to the first small group meeting of the year. It was at charlotte’s.

There was food and although it was a little tempting, it didn’t really bother me too much today.

I thought that the meeting today went well.

I’m uncertain as to whether or not everyone said everything they wanted to say but it was good.

We talked about expectations and our visions for what small groups would look like.

We also talked about how small groups will fit into our focus for GIFT this year.

The focus for GIFT this year is Unity and to bring a more biblical aspect, read more scripture.

This week, we have to pray about whether or not we are certain that we want to commit to leading small groups this year. We have til friday to give our answer.

I’ll be praying about it but I think God has made it pretty clear to me that He wants me to serve him through small group leading this year.

GIFT this week was creative night. So basically they put us into groups and each group gets a bible verse.

Then we have figure out a creative way to express the verse.

Our group – Em, kimba, ena, wes and chocochip mint oreo decided to do a skit.

It was simple and sweet I think haha.

I think GIFT went pretty well today, Chau was a bit worried that it wouldn’t go well because with these kind of things, ppl have to be enthusiastic about it.

But it was good ! PTL !

After GIFT today, instead of hanging out with all the ppl, I had the privilege to just hang out one and one /w kimba.

I’m really happy that I had this opportunity to just catch up with her and to see how God was working in her life.

It’s quite funny how a lot of the things she says relates to the other things in my life and what I’ve been learning.

Hopefully, I’ll get a chance to hang out with her again sometime soon !

It is 3 am now… time to sleep.

Today I really felt that the lord is giving me strength because I didn’t think about being hungry that much compared to yesterday.

09.03.2012

Oh dear… it’s 3 am already !! But I’ll be staying up til I finish the GIFT trifold. It must be finished by 9 am !!

Today was a long day. It felt very very long.

I was soo tired at 8 pm I wanted to take a nap but the day wasn’t over yet.

It was really exciting at church today, there were so many people and so many of these people were new !

I was excited that my friend from Calgary, Amanda was able to come check out SEAC. She came up /w the rest of her family for the long weekend to help her sister Steph move in.

Tbh, I felt like I met a lot of new ppl today but I didn’t really get to talk to many of them. I guess it’s okay though.. because they were bombarded by other ppl. But I still feel kind of guilty.

I got to talk to this half Mexican, half Spanish guy. He apparently works for Bioware, a major game development company. (Chau was super excited) He’s pretty nice and his story of how he came to SEAC is interesting. He met some SEAC ppl (I think they were career ppl) at the Heritage festival. Apparently he usually goes to a church near Clareview but recently he has moved and that church is too far away from his home. I guess the ppl they met at the festival invited him and his friend Maina (I don’t know how her name is actually spelt) to come check out SEAC. Now they are coming regularly. Today was their second week at our church !

I learned quite a few new songs today. I think the song that spoke to me was Captivate by Starfield.

We ate at Ikea for lunch after service. It wasn’t the smartest decision imo because it’s the long weekend and there’s a sale going on atm just when school is about to start. That means lots of ppl so we had to wait quite awhile before we got our food. I was surprised but Jocelyn and Kevin came along as well.

Mikey dropped Pyro, Chau and I off at Southgate after lunch so that we could train to Sonicboom. I didn’t end up finding a fourth person to come with us so we were going to give away the last ticket there but it seemed like ppl already bought them beforehand. There were some ppl scalping though.. kind of sketchy. Apparently it’s illegal.

The concert was as I expected. It was good though, I enjoy listening to music and the bands were alright. Unfortunately we were a bit late so I didn’t get to see fun but I heard their songs as we were lining up to go in. The line up to enter was ridiculously long. There were so many ppl. We each managed to get a foam finger as a souvenir. Too bad we had to leave early so we didn’t get to see Linkin Park.

Bible study today was okay, I felt like a lot of ppl were drained of energy though/ kind of depressed. It was a little quiet compared to the usual. I think a lot of ppl were tired. I’m a little worried.. but I have faith in God that he will take care of them so I’m just going to keep praying.

After bible study, Chau and I headed over to Mikey’s for the random hotpot. There were the girls I met a couple days ago when we played mafia but I still didn’t really get to talk to them. They were kind of occupied by ppl.. The attitude and intentions of some ppl is really concerning for me because I don’t want GIFT to become like that. Some of the brohood were acting really different today, it was noticeable to even Pyro and Lawrence. I feel like ppl pay more attention to some of the new ppl while ignoring the rest of them. Ex. Alvin’s brother Chris, Lawrence. I think it all has to do /w the attitude. Yeah it’s cool that GIFT seems to have more girls attending now but that doesn’t mean we are selective about the new ppl that we are going to talk to/ build into. I know it is wrong for me to judge them but the immaturity of some of these boys was annoying me superbly today. I feel like the brohood has a big influence in GIFT and they can do a lot of good but have the potential to do a lot of harm.

The passage that Matt Cheng gave Chau seemed very relevant to the situation.

Judges 21: Wives for the Benjamites

I didn’t really have time to think it through, think about how I should deal /w my thoughts about it today. Had to keep working on stuff for the trifold.

There was a lot of pictures, cutting and taping.

I’m thankful that I got an opportunity to have girl talk /w Pyro today though. The relationship I have /w Pyro is quite similar to my relationship /w my best friend Alan. They are like real brothers to me. The only difference which is pretty big is that Alan is not a Christian and Pyro is Christian. But his insight helped me let go of something else earlier in the day that bothered me about small groups.

Small groups isn’t happening til October but I’ve actually been thinking about it a lot lately. I will leave this for later though.

Time to get back to working on the trifold !

Please pray I will have enough energy to function tmr..