I finished my first round of midterms today ! Yay !
My night class on Thursday got cancelled so I have more time now which I’ll probably use to study.
I received my first midterm test mark back today.
It was for soc 210 and PTL I actually did well ! It was higher than class avg is all I will say.
I have to say that it’s a gift from God because I haven’t received such a good mark since my spanish class in first year.
I wasn’t over-prepared for the exam or anything so it was not through my efforts although I can’t say that I didn’t put any efforts at all in keeping up with the material.
Tmr I’ll probably find out my CHRTC midterm mark which I’m actually pretty scared about.
But what’s past is past and I can only move on now..
Faith, faith !! I must have more faith in the Lord.
The social psych test was actually kind of hard today. Not in terms of the test itself but the wording of the test.
I felt really ESL, sometimes I couldn’t understand what the question was asking and I didn’t know some of the words they were using in the question (it’s not from the textbook or the lectures).
But anyways… there were some questions that were exactly the same as the practice midterm so I’m glad I actually did look that over !
I had Edo today ! It’s actually been so long since I’ve had Edo.
I believe it’s the first time I’ve Edo this school semester !
Yum, teriyaki chicken !! I think I’m going to attempt making it myself sometime in the near future.
It’s so expensive to eat out ! =(
I went to prayer meeting today.
Cyncyn was sharing about her summer and how she learned to place faith in God.
I really appreciated how she came to share even though she’s so busy this week.
I wonder if I’ll see her tmr in class..
I went to MS to study for a bit. But I left super early
I felt so distracted, and I just wasn’t absorbing the info I was reading.
I was studying for my music class and I haven’t done any of the readings yet so I decided to do that since I’m done midterms for now.
There’s so many names, songs, dates, cities and random crap that they refer to that I just don’t know in the book.
It’s kind of overwhelming.
Sometimes it’s interesting but for the most part I just don’t get it b/c it seems so messy.
Maybe it’s just today that I can’t absorb the info.
I’ll try again tmr.
So I went home to do my devos. I did them late today but I think I needed to do so.
My mother called me today.
Idk why but every time my mother calls me I just want to cry.
Perhaps I’m remembering the pain of the past again and I have to remind myself of where I am now. (I’m not at the same place anymore)
I have to say that I feel already overwhelmed with small groups.
There has been a lot of decision making that I’ve been having to do lately.
In terms of winter con, breakforth, work schedules for the break.
I really have to consider my financial situation. But I need to decide fast because the early bird deadline is coming up fast. The first being breakforth’s deadline this Sunday.
I didn’t realize how much I’d have to spend in November this year b/c I didn’t know of these deadlines but now I do !
And I feel like I am being tested by God now.
But I really need to make a decision soon… so I shall be praying for those things.
I actually feel so frustrated/stressed out about small groups already.
I feel like I’m not doing anything for my small groups, not trying hard enough.
So now while we’re trying to arrange a Bible study, times are just not working out and it’s so frustrating because I wish I had more time options for ppl but I can’t.
I can’t compromise work times and practice times for worship, winter con prep etc., but I’m willing to compromise my study times, free times, times allocated for myself.
This is something I knew I would do if I had to. It is what I have committed to when I decided to be a small group leader.
If ppl in my small group are in need, I will work around my study times to provide them /w support.
I am willing to do this.
The problem is being that those times that I have just don’t work out with other ppl’s.
But the realistic thing is that not everyone’s schedules are going to fit.
It’s just so frustrating still even knowing this.
Yes, in the end it’s still in God’s hands, so I should really be relieved in knowing this.